Questions??

Many questions haunt me everyday. The biggest one....Is my existence worth it?? Ever since I stepped out of school gate on the last day of high school, life has been an eye opener for me(but not in a good way) Ages 18-20 have passed with a sickening realization that most of my childhood dreams may not come true at all.
So wat do I do now?? Jus give up and sit in the rollercoaster ride to hell called "life" or to fight back and make my own trip to Successland?
Most people around me seem to be in a state of perpetual detachment from reality. They seem to be happy in their own make believe world with their artificial love,friendship and stupid attachment to evils like drinking and smoking which further takes them away from reality. If reality is what we have to finally face why not face it right in the face rather than escape from it by mere intoxication.
I really dont know what to say. There is a whirlwind of ideas in my mind and incapable as I am,I am unable to pick a single strand og thought to develop upon it.Thats for today i guess with 2 exams right on my doorsteps. Netowork technology and Classical Meachnics.
Been losing some weight steadily for the last few days thanks to the walking.
Ill catch you Later..
24/04/2005