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7th Feb 2007...
a week before valentines day i guess.....another tormenting day of people asking me "wat are u doin in the evening" and my completion of 22 years of unbeatean valentines day tragedy.
yah yah i know the people there who call it a hallmark holiday etc etc but hehe deep down inside unless ur really fucked up u would want to do something dont u??

I may have wat people call an average mellow life....i get up , im skipping the coffee cos its killing my appetite and making me loose weight and look more and more invisible as days go on by...i usuallly do some reading go to college , come back and do some more reading and go to sleep/....

true i dont live the nri dream of hanging out chilling out in clubs ...fornicatin and driving ferraris but but i hope to aspire to drive a benz someday (hopefully before 30 cos after that its not really worth it)

I have been thru a lot in life.....bad shitty situations hehe which no one else can imagine ..really sticky sticky situation..

Imagine that u buy a ticket for urself and the girl u like(not love) for a concert a mnth before the concert cos the tickets sell out real fast....now u anticipate for a mnth how great the concert is gonna be specially with the special girl at ur side ...dont u?? then then then....it happens within this very mnth this girl gets disinterested in u and gets a new bf and guess wat she asks u......to give up the ticket for her bf....(she is gonna pay even a lil extra for it).....yah as if that helps ...and there u are on that day with her telling u the thank u s ..she enjoyin the concert with her now bf and u are at home finding innovative ways to kil urself which dont hurt

very many of the situations which has got fucked up...
welll the thing is my life has been mostly normal except when it comes to girls where my luck is like horrible,,,,,and most of my incidents related to this are really really terrible....

rememebr the time ur just a kid...ur like in class 11 have no idea how cruel women can be .... so there is this girl u fancy in ur tuitions(people form india only know this)...she is nice and although u dont think u have a chance with her u give it a shot...well shot in class 11 meant talking nicely with her,.,,,,well ur happy she is smiling back to ur stupid jokes,......and u think there might be something ...a movie when u leave school ro soemthing......

then then then u go to this shopping arcade to buy something...i donno wat and then u see her hand in hand with one of the filthiest guys u know a guy even a skunk wont kiss him......now ur there heart broken convinced u are goin to die alone and thinking "how the hell"
jus many of the experiences...

deep inside we realize we are so pathetic no one would go out iwht us let alone love us.....wat is it thats missing withing us...is it our school with its non coed environment which didnt let us mix with girls and now all the good girls are taken...or wat is it....u keep wondering and getting shot one after the other.....(which aint so commendable being desperate cos when u really have a gf she will despise u for being so pathetic)....