Monday blues and Tuesday greens

Does it happen to you that when u have a really really really long day with lots happening ...end of the day u cant really remember when it began and what all did u do??(was it yesterdya or today???) well mondays for me is like that...after the most boring lectures(which can put u into a coma)...leaves me in a vegetative state then is the work in the dark lab for me on mondays.....

first lecture is about this thing called computerized experiments where the ever lazy lecturer goes on and on about........circuits blah blah this gate that gate...only gate i look is the door to the room thru which i can escape...

it is followed by another deadening lecture called remote sensing which in the begining i thought was about satellites..it is about satellites but by the time we reach the interesting parts....my soul will be only thing left to study it....my earthly bosy would have withered in boredom...

6-8 is this really really interesting lecture on modelling via differential equations..okkk enuff sarcasm...the way the lecturer teaches is probably the most most boring way in the world and i dont blame hi cos its 6 pm common...well he will be a good medium to exorcise evil spirits cos i dont think the most malginant of dead souls wont like to listen to how a solution to ode determines stability and equilibrium...

then then then was working in the dark dark lab all alone...i wrote dark twice cos its really dark and a mobile phone glowing looks like a nuclear explosion compared to it....then printing notes about quantum entanglement etc etc......

tuesday started as a bright sunny day...so sunny that it burnt my skin making it look like roasted pork i guess hheheh...then blah blah blah boring evenless day till now.....

guess catch u later...

Insecurity and Paranoia Support Group

I wish there was a support group for insecure and paranoid people like me...i admit its a disease....there are support group for alcoholics, drug addicts, suicide survivors and sexually abused....wat makes us insecure and paranoid poeple different that we dont deserve a support group or a sponsor who would remind us "dont be insecure"...

Insecurity is a diesease which not only affects me but all the people around me...maybe its jus looking at any shiny surface to see if ur hair which u dont really like is okkk or feeling paranoid that ur gf has finally seen u thru and will leave u keeps us in constant fear........btu wat really causes us to be insecure...is it the absence of success or the asdultation of people which usually fills everyone pride to the brim and makes them secure...

I have been insecure since birth...then overdemanding parents and a discouraging education system hardly did anything for a releif ...when i was a kid and i was taken out wearing those black shorts and those really aante diluvian leathers "chotis" i felt ok walking around the gairahat reagion taking a rickshaw home back from ooposite camparis.....but first time i felt a pang of insecurity was when my parents took me to scoop on a nice saturday afternoon wearing those clothes in a midst of quite a smartly dressed early 90s crowd....

True as a kid....i was given tintins to read and watch as much cartoons as i want but unlike the fancy kids in my class , i had not heard of scorpions or pink floyd ...i didnt read noddy when i was kid and no one really told me to read wodehouse or maugham later....when it is later when people say "oh u have not rtead this that..heard this that/..." i even wonder how one chap from my class actually knew the name of the movie "maltese falcon" in class 9 when all we knew was rambo and terminator and maybe some where eagles dare......maybe all these contributed to my insecuritys when the fancy chaps in class spewed out anmes i never heard offf.....